I even joked with my best friends that I was going to celebrate the Fourth of July today instead. I thought it was funny, but they weren't really amused (I'm looking at you, Liv!Hahaha).
The first one I've spent by myself since I was 15. The first time I've felt alone on this stupid holiday in a long time.
With friends and girls getting flowers, chocolate, and gifts today, today has been a completely humbling experience. I've smiled and laughed and encouraged the ladies around me. I'm very truly happy for them, but sometimes I just don't feel like I want to be.
All week I've had to remind myself that right now I'm in a season of being single, and that that is okay. I've reminded myself that the Lord has a plan for me that exceeds anything I've ever thought of.
It doesn't make any less of a lady because I don't have a Valentine, and that encourages me.
I'm spending the day with the best people I know, my parents are sending me a much needed care package, and I don't have much homework for the weekend. So instead on focusing on what I don't have, I'm attempting to focus and praise the Lord for what I do.
Hopefully, one day, I will get to tell my children how I waited patiently for their father, even through the sucky holidays alone.
-S
