Freedom is Sweet

I've spent far too long being scared. I've spent far too long doing what others expected of me. I've spent far too long playing it safe because I was scared of what would happen if I failed. You know what the best thing about failure is? At least you tried something new. Yeah, you might not be the best and you might just really suck, but at least you did something.

Being 20 and having your whole life planned out is great and all, but where's the fun in that? Yeah, I have a loose plan for my life, if not I would have went to college, chosen a Social Studies Ed. Major, or worked my butt off to get to my Junior year, but what I'm saying is: I want to be young. I want to be free.

My life has been pretty safe and calm, and I'm so thankful for that. I have parents who love us and each other more than words can say. I grew up in the Christian faith and have never really wavered on where I stood in my beliefs. I've had some of the same friends for over a decade. I've had average life experiences that have been flavored by some amazing people. These people are what came to color my world, and as thankful as I am for each and everyone of them, I'm ready to color my world with vast experiences.

After a long-term relationship, I've recently become single. It was a weird feeling at first, kind of like not having all 10 fingers or something. You knew something was wrong, but it wouldn't result in death. But it's been 3 months, and I'm still alive. I'm actually more than alive. I feel the extreme sense of adventure and freedom creeping up on me each and everyday, and I love it. This upcoming summer I plan to travel, meet new people, try new things, do something I've never done before. It doesn't matter where, as long as I go.

Christ has set me free from the burdens of this world. I don't work for the approval of others, I work for an audience of one. He has told me He has plans for me and, although I don't know what they are, I know they are big enough to fulfill my life with experience that make me speechless. He has created all things beautiful in his time, and I know He'll walk right next to me in this time of transition in my life.

I've spent so much time waiting for Friday, waiting for college, waiting for summer, waiting for the right guy, waiting for the right friends, waiting to get married, waiting to move out, waiting to look a certain way, waiting, waiting, and more waiting. But I'm not waiting anymore. I'm going.

-S